Single in AK

OMFG I'm not SIngle anymore!!!

I'm not sure if you read this at all Chad, but if you do, forgive me, but I'm venting..



So let's see here.. I met him around July 22ish.. I went to hang out and have soem beers with some guys from work, why.. well most of the people that I click with the most are men. So there I was with 6 guys and me. That's when I met "HIM", my knight in shining armor, the man that I've waited for my whole life, the man i was searching for, the man that should be my husband. Yeah your asking yourself, shit I ask myself constantly.. how do I know I feel this way after knowing him for such a short period of time. Most of the people you ask that are married, and truly happy, will say that when they met their spouse that they just knew.. after the second date, after the first week, and some have even said the first date. Ok so I pretty much felt it after the 3 day I met him. I really do believe that he is the one.
He has a blog on another site, I read it, and today was one of those days I wish I hadn't. Most of his blogs are tear jerkers, they literally make me cry, cause they are so heartfelt, so meaningful, so fucking romantic. Today's Blog was none of those, well meaningful, cause there is meaning by it. It has to mean something.. now I know why he was so distant when he picked m up from work, he wanted to talk about it, but couldn't. He probably kept himself awake thinking about it. You knwo and I now I have so many mixxed emotions about the whole thing, not sure what to think, but most of what I can think is that, I've been way too honest with him. He may go back out on the road for work and all. From his Blog it sounds like he doesn't trust me if he were to go on the road. You know.. if I was just 4 years younger, and not swept me off my feet, he may have a reason to not trust me. But FUCK! he has sooo swept me off my feet.. there isn't any way that I would ruin this. He's the man I want to marry, I'm not going to cheat on him. I'm not going to get weak. I'm not interested in sleeping with, having sex with, fucking or whatever, with any man ever again. I told him that he had nothing to worry about if he went out on the road, I told him that my life is completely different now, I have so many things that can keep me occupied that I don't need to find a man to have sex with. Shit I barely went out on dates before I met him, what makes him think that I want to now? How do I know that I can trust him? well I do trust him, I trust his love for me, I trust OUR love.. I trust the words he says, I trust him when he wraps his arms around me, I trust his kisses.. he was just as bad as I was in the past.. why does it have to follow me..
If you read this Honey.. I just want to tell you the same thing I have told you many times.. the reason I am Okay with you going out on the road is that I have so much time to wait for you, I've waited 32 years you, I can wait another year. I trust our love!
Not to mention " $$$$ "
and the " MONEY "
let me rephrase it " DINERO "

I wish I knew how else I could prove that I won't stray, How else can I tell you how much I love you. How else can I make you completely happy? You do this and more to me!!!

posted by SingleSexGrl @ 11:58 AM