Single in AK

Letter to the Ex.

Vince,
I am pretty sure I know why you haven't called me back. I'm pretty sure you have a girlfriend or some one that is taking up your time,or someone that is on your mind. You were a very faithful man, and I'm sure your doing the same to her. Well to that I say "FUCK YOU", before I even moved out, we had that huge fight in the car, when you said that you were ready to be single again, and date, but you said that you didn't want to call it the end. Even when I was packing up and moving out, you still didn't want to call it the end. This song is for you..."FUCK YOU" . After 5 years of living a life that I thought I had found my soul mate, my Husband, my life.. you wake up one day and say to yourself, that maybe I'm not the one? It then took you another 5 months to even tell me that. After you told me that I wasn't the one, I then said that I needed to decide what I needed to do, I found a place to live, and was ready to start my new life with or without you. Stupid me, thinking that maybe you would see the light and just move with me, I even told you that getting a place outside of your mother's house would make me happy for a few years and marriage would be on the back burner. What I didn't realize or want to realize is that, you weren't ready to grow up and pay bills, who knows when you will be ready to. When will you start paying your own bills? Your 30 years old, still living at home, your mother buys your food, your mother pays for your insurance, your mother bought your truck, your mother basically pays for the clothes on your fucking back. I should have known from the first date, since I paid.

Since we have been apart I've gotten settled into my own house all by myself. I can't say I'm completely happy, I still cry at night about once a month, but that's understandable, and liveable for right now. I went and saw my parents, and I see old friends, and they say that I seem a different person now, a happier person. Some say I still seem depressed, but that's mainly when I'm asked about you, and how I'm handling it. I'm good if I'm not talking about you. But I am happy that I am concentrating on ME, and only ME, making myself happy, being independent, that was one of things about me that you fell in love with, the fact that I was independent.

I don't need you, I still love you, but I don't need you. I'm happier beign lonely alone, than being lonely with you in the same room. If you never feel the love for me again like you did before, I will survive. If we never get the chance to dance again, I will survive. If you fall in love with someone else, and marry her, I will survive.

posted by SingleSexGrl @ 6:02 AM