Single in AK

Who thought of this Holiday anyway!

Well it's Valentine's Day, well it started about 5 hours ago Alaska time. I just got home from work,I plan on sleeping all day, I think. I was driving into work today and heard the DJ lady say something so sweet and sentimental, it fucking made me cry, Stupid Bitch! Does she not realize that there are so many people out there with NOBODY! I get to come home to my crying cat and snuggle with him, not that he doesn't love me back, cause he does. But FUCK this Holiday! And FUCK all those happy couples.
Do I start off with the good news or the bad news?
Well for starters.. The Alcoholic..Well he called me twice saying that he was depressed and drinking. WTF? Hello your an alcoholic..He already knew that I didn't like him drinking so I don't know he felt compelled to tell me.
I bought this book (He's Just not into you)threw Amazon, referred by Belle and a friend from work, and in it says to tell the truth, and not play games. So the Alcoholic calls and leaves me a message saying that I'm trying to avoid him cause I didn't call him back after 1 day. He knows I work nights,but I guess he was expecting me call him everyday since we had sex. grr..
So I call him back while on break at work, and tell him the truth. It's just not going to work out, for 1 your an Alcoholic, and for 2 you don't understand where I'm coming from when I say I don't want a relationship, and for 3 your just way too immature for me, Its basically just not going to work. No games no guessing, just straight and to the point. He asks for me to at least give him a chance, and he explains that he crys at night cause he has Nobody to come home to, or Nobody he can call to talk to about how bad his day has gone. Uuummm.. Hello you just described my life and lots of people's lives, but guess what Alcoholic,I don't like you enough right now to actually care about your life. Well you would think after telling him the truth and the facts that he would give up, but nooooo.. He calls back and leaves another sappy message on my phone, and then calls the next day to just talk and tell me that he is working again. WTF? The truth and the facts didn't help..

um... More bad news to ruin a fucking stupid holiday.. The EX .... He calls and leaves a message saying that he isn't ready to have dinner with me, he would rather do a movie.. You know I'm not sure how to respond to it,I just called back and left him a message saying, I was thankful for the truth, without the guess work,and that I still had stuff at his place that I would like to get, and basically I just told him that since he doesn't want to see me,just a quick reminder I still have belongings of mine at his place, so eventually we or I will need to contact him. But basically I don't know how to respond to him anymore.. Let him go.. That's what I need to do, but sorry if I spent 6 years loving him and giving him my all, the best years of my life..


well the best thing about the day was that I let a wall down, I asked a man to stay the night with me, I told him that it was a big step for me, but I don't think he realizes how big of a step, yep you guessed it the Netherlands guy, we talked online for hours and he came over after he got off work, so I had to stay awake until then, not that it was hard to stay awake, cause I was soo excited about him coming over.
this time was jsut incredible as the first, the sex is only going to get better i think, this time we were more into each other i think anyway.. i hope.. thats basically all i can do is hope that he is more into me each time, did i mention he has a tongue ring? i know i did, i want to describe his kiss, this is not the first tiem i've kissed someone with a tongue ring, but he does it in a way that is sooo magical..
he tilts his head to perfectly align his lips and mouth with mine, his hands wander all over my body threw my hair the entire time he kisses me. Ocassionally i open my eyes and see him staring at me as if he can see threw my soul, he has the softest most tender lips when they touch mine, ive never felt kisses like his, i moan from the heat and the passion that passes threw me when he kisses me, its as if our tongues are having sex inside our mouths, and rarely, very rarely does the tongue ring hit our teeth, but i will say its an exhilirating feeling to feel my tongue rub against his piercing.. jsut thinking about makes me want his lips on mine...

Later that same day.. we wake up at 6pmish.. i have to work at 9pm, i open my eyes to see him looking at me.. i coudl tell he didnt sleep well, i didnt either really, not sure why really, jsut felt wierd i guess on both our parts, but then again im not sure how many woman he has actually spent the night with, but he will be the 2nd man since i have broken it off with uumm.. you know who...and the other was my boss from work, and then i was jsut so plum tuckered out from all the good sex, that i did sleep good

Well im hoping that i get to spend more tiem with him,we have talked a couple times at work now, he seems to be getting more comfortable around me in public, he still looks down at the floor alot, jsut shy? or embarressed? nto sure really..

Well thats all i'm going to say for now.. im really exhausted need to catch up on my sleep.

posted by SingleSexGrl @ 5:48 AM