Single in AK

Sleeping alone again.

Well time passes and I am still single and sexless. The married man with the 3 kids hasn't come over in about 2 weeks, and then he only came over for about 15 minutes. He was so pale and tired I felt bad but happy that he came over. He said he came over cause I complained that he never visited me and I could tell if we were to have sex something would go wrong, so I started out just cuddling with him, and he cuddled right back, it felt so nice to have his hands on me. Well I noticed that as I got closer to him and my leg showing and rubbing on him was making his manly hood stand to attention, probably didn't help that my breasts were coming out of my robe, that was loosely tied (ok I did that purposely). So I decided to just give him oral sex, he even warned me to stop, but for some reason I didn't want to, and let him finish. I told him that I wanted to show him how much I appreciated him coming to visit me, and that I don't treat all my visitors that way. He explained that it had been a long time for him, and that I do such a good job he couldn't hold back. Alas he is married and not leaving his wife and family anytime soon, not that that would be a good thing, but I can't help but want him when I see him.

Well I since it had been so long since I had gotten to spend time with my married man, I decided to give old fling a chance to weasel his way back into my life. Have I mentioned this guy before? He's 31, 1 kid, no girlfriend or wife, he was recently living with his parents about 25 miles away from me, and he is a alcoholic, I say alcoholic cause he has had his drivers license suspended for too many DWI's, and he's going threw the courts to get it all back, we will call this guy umm.... Alcoholic.. Yeah that's the nicest way to describe how I am feeling about him right now. Well since he has no license and I kind of needed to get laid, I decided to let him stay the night, since I knew that I wouldn't want to take him home really late at night, I hate to drive. I cant believe the first man I let sleep in my bed is him. We ordered Chinese food and watched TV, had sex twice, he came both times, tried his damndest to make me chum, but I guess I just wasn't into it, cause no matter what he did it wasn't going to happen. I explain to him that I am involved with other people and that I mainly use them for sex, but that I had wanted more from the married man, but could only have the sex. The alcoholic was talking most of the night about the same thing, how he plans to do this with his life and change this, and stop drinking and partying, and take care of things to get his life straightened out. I mean seriously, he's 32 got a kid, just got off 3rd party with his parents, and he's just now thinkign what he wants to do with his life. I mean seriously what does this guy think he can offer me? You know what he offered me.. let him and his friend move in with me, then we move out and get a bigger place. I had told him that I wasn't ready for a relationship and there he is thinking about our future together. grrr...
Can you believe the Alcoholic called me everyday after that for the next 3 days until I went off on him. He called me one day and left a message that he felt like having sex. EXSCUSE me but when did I say that I wanted him as a booty call? And one message he left he was at the bar having drinks with his buddies and he had like 6 missed calls, was wondering if one of them was me, sheesh, I know he has caller ID, shit, I know this cause he calls my home phone number, stupid me for calling him from my home phone. I dated him like 7 or more years ago, what the HELL did I see in him then? I can barely understand things he says cause of his lisp or his messed up teeth, or something, I'm not sure, but half of what he says I have to have him repeat. Grrrr....
At least the Korean realizes what I meant when I said that I didn't want a relationship and he calls and at least asks if I want some company, doesn't just straight up ask for SEX. I haven't brought myself to resorting to the Korean since the last time, I figured if it was that bad after the 2nd time it would just get worse.
Someone needs to make a trap for my legs so I can keep them shut.. even to myself!
My most peculiar Mademoiselle (Belle) has suggested I resort to just dating Monkeys. I would have less drama with them, but I explained that I have not had the proper training on monkeys. I think that's what they have reserved Chapter 4 for.
But Alas I have some good news! With all my failed attempts to meeting men, the same way I met the Korean, online, I met someone else. We will call him VMS, I will explain later why I call him that. I check my Yahoo Personals mail daily, and one day I get a message from someone that looks pretty attractive and he E-Mails me back on my real E-Mail address and tells me where he works. Turns out that he is one of the guys I check out on a daily basis at work! OMG he has a nice butt! O and he has a nice smile too. A week went by with 2 E-Mails back and forth till I let him on the fact that we work together, and we see each other everyday. We have been chatting online now for 2 weeks, we are pretty busy at work so we barely speak, we don't actually work together we basically pass each other in the halls. If we speak its brief and professional, but I will say that I smile bigger and he smiles more. Makes me wonder since it won't be a blind date, when will he ask for my number or ask me out? Or Do I ask him? Did I make the first step by telling him that we work together? I did speak to him first at work, I had to clarify if it was really him, so I asked him one day as he passed if he had a tongue ring, it was completely out of the blue, and he does WOOHOO!! Well I guess if we take it slow it can only be a good thing, he sure is cute and so far he can make me laugh and smile. And damn it he has a nice ass!

I still miss my EX. We are supposed to do something on Valentines day, I told him that I wanted to make him dinner, but I have a feeling that he is going to cancel on me.

posted by SingleSexGrl @ 8:57 AM