Single in AK

Shy or Aggressive?

Tell me what kind of person are you?Are you shy or aggressive?So I was woken up after sleeping for a mere 4 hours by a guy friend at the door.This is a guy whom I've slept with before in fact I had some real good anal sex with him the day after my birthday.Yes I said anal, cause we didn't have much anything else,well I did give him oral sex, but that is what I do best, and rather enjoy.It's been about 4 years or more since I had had sex with him,so the offer of anal sex with him,I had to take him up on the offer,cause I always remembered it being great.And just as I thought it was great,he isn't too big or too long, he fits just right there,and usually that type of sex hurts from most men.Well anyway,my friend,we will call him Wal-Mart boss cause that is how we know each other from years and years ago,he comes over and we talk for about 3 hours about anything and everything. This man is so attractive to me,but let me tell you, he has 3 kids and a good woman that he has had since I've known him,so I know its merely just a physical and friendship attraction that we have.We have hung out many many times over the past 6 or so years without the thought of sex coming into the conversation,well NO it's a topic, but its not something we have acted on until the day after my birthday,and I will say we had both been drinking and doing some happy smoke,so we were pretty worked up.Well after 3 hours of talking yesterday,I'm dressed and ready for work, and he mentions that sex would be good right about now for him?WTF why does he wait until the last minute to say something?Shy, not an aggressive type,I guess that's my category.But why do I always have to be the one to chase?I'm pretty enough that the man shouldn't be able to keep his hands off me.I wasn't going to jump him cause he told me that night after my birthday that he was happy with Roxanne, and he basically told me that he had allot of guilt for doing it.Then wakes up the week after and wants me to jump him?WTF?Men are soooo confusing, its obvious that I want sex pretty much all the time,but when a man tells me that it didn't feel right, what am I supposed to do?Grrr...

O' the married man,he has had excuse after excuse as to why he can't come over.It's been what like 2 weeks now that we have been together.Does he really think that this is all worth it, he probably does cause he is probably getting it at home,of course I don't ask that or ever mention his wife at all.We talk at work,and eat lunch together, and play our game almost everyday,but its not about anything serious,right now his head is in Fucking Football.I did tell him that we should just be online friends and that he just didn't have time for me,he was not very happy about that.

So I contacted my Ex-boyfriend the other day.I called his cell phone,it went to his voice mail, I didn't leave a message,but I'm sure it shows the caller ID number, and NO he didn't call back.I also sent him a long E-mail,it was a bit sappy,jsut a bit,I was mainly jsut telling him whats new,and that my life is plain and boring without him,shit it was plain and boring with him,LOL.Either way this way he knows that I haven't moved on,and that he still holds a place in my heart.Is that wrong to tell him these things?I want to give him his space,I truly think he will find someone else that he actually loves more than me,and it will take him sooner than it will me,I tend to put up a pretty big wall.

So Tuesday's are the days that my married man usually coems over, I wonder if he will coem over, I'll let you know..I must not get my hopes up,since he tends to let me down when i do.

posted by SingleSexGrl @ 9:28 AM